RED!  FRUSTRATION!  ANGER!  DISBELIEF!  UNCONTROLLABLE TURRETS!

I was so frustrated after the loss to OSU.  I ranted and raved screaming "WHY?"  My kids left the room and hid behind their mother in fear of my uncontrollable, frustrated attitude.  The family pet, Ms. Kitty, ran to her favorite hiding spot in the basement.  My second Directv remote lay broken on my bedroom floor.

I couldn't understand why with 59 seconds to go and a timeout left, the coaches for the Hawks, my beloved team, would choose to run the clock out instead of going for the game winning field goal.  I struggled with my emotions all weekend and even volunteered to do the dishes and laundry to give my head a break from the mind-numbing question of "why?" that was rattling around in my brain.  That didn't help, so I went outside and did yard work, again to no avail.  I even cooked!  I became emotionally exhausted wresting with that question of "why?" 

I almost called in sick to work this morning as I was still not in the right frame of mind.  Then like a beacon of light on the rocky shoals during a storm, Stoopsmyass spoke with a voice of reason.  Once I read his comments and thoughts about why Iowa didn't go for the win, the clouds parted and I could see clearly. 

Thank you BHGP for being here like a sponsor in AA.  If it wasn't for this blog and the great writers we have here, especially SMA, I feel that I would have drifted into those "rocky shoals".  Hawkeye State, SMA, The Director, and many others have talked sensed into my thick head and made this loss bearable by answering the question of "why?".

Thanks again for being the port in the storm for many of us Hawk Fans in Iowa and abroad.  It is nice to come here after a win and "celebrate" our Hawks after a victory, but more importantly it is great to come here and lament and get a voice of reason after a dissapointing Hawk loss.

Thank you, BHGP from the bottom of my heart.

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